Monday, March 21, 2016

My friend Donald

 It’s amazing how quickly time passes sometimes.  

If you made it through my last blog posted back in January, you are aware of my Kentucky buddy, Donald Brown.  When the snow got deep and my power went out, Donald invited me to stay with him for the duration of the outage.  During that time we got to watch University of Kentucky basketball on television which was, frankly, the highlight of that weekend.  Hanging out with various members of his family who came to tend him in his illness was special, too. 

But by February’s end, my sequester was up and back home I had to go.  Before I headed north, I stopped in to see Donald and his daytime caregiver, Betty.  He was having a good lunch that she fixed and I heard another couple stories of how life in the Kentucky hills was for them growing up.  

I told Donald I hoped to be back sometime in the spring to help with some yard work at the Lakeview house.  But as I bid both goodbye and closed the front door, I wondered if that would be the last time I would get to shake his hand.  

Indeed, it was.  

Just a week after I got home, Cindy Lou and I traveled to New Orleans to be with family as her sister, Anita Cooke, celebrated the opening of her gallery show at the Jonathan Ferrara Gallery on Julia Street.  As we drove through Louisville, the town where Donald had withstood his cancer treatment regimen, my thoughts were with him and I gave him a call on my cell phone.  No answer.  Concern?  Surely.  But I also know he has doctor’s visits that gets him out of the house on occasion, so I tried not to worry.  

When I called again a few days later and still got no response, I was more concerned.  I then shot a text to our mutual friend, Shannon, thinking she would know more.  She did, indeed.  Just a few days after I left, Donald complained of unusual stomach pains.  Turns out when he left for that emergency room visit, he would never make it back home.  

Donald Brown died Wednesday, 16 March, just hours following his transport back from Louisville to a hospice in his hometown of Monticello, Kentucky.  We buried him last Saturday.  The family invited me to read a new poem I wrote for the occasion.  I offer it to you today.   

Springtime 


for Donald Brown

Last evening as I sat on my back porch
under a warm, cloudless March gloaming
for my first Nature watch at Wild Grace this year

I wondered what last Earth sounds
my friend Donald was aware of —
  he who 
had just been transferred from hospital to hospice
in his personal battle with nastiness. 

I thought how much I wanted to share 
those late day moments of the earliest Spring
with robin and wren singing their hearts out
while chickadee and woodpecker finished their day 
feeding on sunflowers and peanuts just above my head. 

‘Hope is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul - ’
  wrote my Emily. 

I couldn’t help thinking what a good time to die it was — 
in the early spring in Kentucky with daffodils popping 
and the willow’s green leaf haze and white pear blossoms erupting — 
not just promise, but the Truth of Love and Life —

such a time in space 
to release a faithful Soul to take 
his place in the eternal circle of All.



Today’s elder idea:   
When we love, we have, at most, this:
to let each other go; for holding on 
comes easily, we don't have to learn it.

Rainer Maria Rilke

images:  Donald on his Massimo 4-wheeler, checking on me during a snow in winter 2015; the flower spray on his casket.  Look carefully for the deer in the middle of the spray.  :-)

For more on Anita Cooke’s amazing work, see:  http://www.jonathanferraragallery.com/exhibitions/anita-cooke3

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Dad & Jonas

A week ago today I was forced to leave my very cold house at Lake Cumberland after winter storm Jonas dumped a half inch of ice then about 18 inches of snow, leaving plenty of weight on trees to break off limbs and cause havoc on utilities.  In my case, it was full-fledged white pine that toppled over onto the power line.  

It was an adventure I am not eager to repeat.  By the time it was over and power was back on, I had lost three and half days of work on my book, but also realized I had not communicated my plight to my grown daughters.  What follows started as an email, but grew into a full fledged narrative.  I thought you might enjoy the read.  

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Yo, Jenni & Kelly -- 

I wanted to let you know about a lifetime experience I had this last weekend.  Who knows, it could happen again, but odds are this was the One.  Sorry I didn’t text along the way, but I was preoccupied with other things, as you will see. 

I am sure you heard plenty about winter storm Jonas that buried the East coast in a couple feet of snow.  Kentucky got the first devastating punch Jonas was to leave.  I was paying attention to weather reports, trying to determine how much snow the storm would dump, but data kept changing for the Lake Cumberland area from 1 to 3 inches of snow to 15 or more.  Plus a little ice to start things off.  I figured we were in for a good old good one, but I like good snow storms and my writing desk is right here by the window.  I wasn’t going to miss a thing. 

When I got up around 7:30 or so, snow was heavy.  Looked pretty gray out over the lake.  Shinbone cliff was not visible all day.  Like during all 9 hours of daylight.  Add to that the early start of freezing rain.  When I got into the kitchen, I noticed the microwave clock was flashing and Direct TV was on.  The computer told me I had done a bad thing by turning off remote drives without shutting them down first.  Sorry.  We had had a recent power outage but all was well and the power back on.  I sent out a few emails and was getting into my day, when at 9:45, the computer screen went black and the house silent.  I uttered a four letter word very loud.  

About five minutes later power returned for 2 minutes but failed.  Same thing for 5 minutes about 45 minutes later.  That was it.  Dad was without power living in all-electric home with no fireplace on a snow covered hill in southern Kentucky that his car could not climb even if it had to.  And the day was getting colder.  I wasn’t going anywhere. 

I was concerned right away because I knew power makes this house tick.  I was immediately concerned about my phone and computer.  Phone was at full charge, but when I lost it, charge would be gone.  And I knew the computer wouldn’t go for more than a couple hours on its own, so I just turned it off to conserve power.  It wasn’t going anywhere without wifi anyway. 

How long would my iPhone charge have to last?  Didn’t know but understood I should be careful.  I contacted Cindy Lou immediately by text to report my predicament.  Shannon, our good friend who owns this house, had just texted me earlier at my computer to see if I had power.  I did.  Our good neighbor down here, Donald, who is deep in a battle with cancer, had lost power earlier that morning in the storm, and since he and Shannon share all kinds of conversation, Shannon, who lives in Lebanon, Ohio was aware of his power loss.  Having power for Donald seemed essential.  I was trying to figure how to get him over to my place just about the time my power went out. 

By noon I was trying to be patient but wondered how Donald and his place were doing.  Shannon texted that power had returned for Donald and she had assumed the Lakeview house was back up as well.  Not so, I replied.  She said she’d report the outage to the local power company.  And if I needed to get out of there, she invited me to pick up the key to her cabin down the road at Donald’s, crank up the heat, and make myself at home.  

When the power came on briefly that last time, I checked the thermostat to learn the house had lost only a few degrees in the 45 minutes the power was out.  I wondered how long the heat would last.  I knew the storm wasn’t going to get terribly cold, like in the low 30s.  I figured the house could withstand those conditions for a couple days.  Pipes should be okay.  

By afternoon I couldn’t stop thinking about the refrigerator.  Hmmm.  I didn’t want to open the doors to check anything for fear of losing the cold.  True, I could always put cold stuff in the snow, but that didn’t seem practical.  Plus I didn’t want to tempt any neighborhood four-leggeds.  

At sunset, the house got very dark.  I brought one candle and one flashlight.  I figured there wasn’t anything I could accomplish anyway, so might as well climb into bed.  Besides, if the house was going to get really cold, being covered up was the best place to be.  My nose would get pretty cold, but other than that, I was toasty.  But concerned.  

By Saturday morning, no power yet.  Snow pretty much slowed down, but still light flurries.  Shinbone visible.  Refrigerator now a bigger concern.  I decided to take the ice out before it melted, bag it in ziplocks, and keep all on the refrigerator side.  

As the day went on, the house got colder.  Maybe into the low 40s?  Didn’t have a thermometer to check, but I put on my heavy robe which is the warmest this I have down here.  Still got colder.  Spent more time in bed.  

I finally knew it wouldn’t be wise to spend another night here in a very cold house when a warm place was available down the road.  I would pick up the key from Donald, visit a bit, then head next door to Shannon’s place.  Sounded like a plan.  So about 1 pm, I packed up my computer and phone and a little food, very aware of how hard this walk was going to be.  The only phone charger I had with me was my night stand music player.  That would have to come along with my Mac. Didn’t have a day bag, so I loaded up my cloth briefcase, strapped on my hiking shoes, grabbed my baseball cap, and headed up the hill in 18 inches of snow.  

Indeed, I stopped about every 25 feet or so to catch my breath and remembered very clearly that good old neighbor Wilbur Helstern had a heart attack on the night he shoveled heavy snow off his driveway.  I wasn’t worried, but I knew if I had a problem there was no one around to help, including Cindy Lou, Shannon, or Donald.  Not many live back here in winter, and I wasn’t in any condition to walk even farther to knock on a door.  

At the top of the first hill a pretty good sized tree limb was down covering part of the road.  I couldn’t worry about that.  But as I stomped not much farther, I was met with this:  

I knew then power wasn’t coming on any time soon.  There was lots of snow in the area and I figured my rural roost wasn’t going to be on anybody’s priority list to send out a service truck.  And, yes, I had to crawl through the tree.  I was confident the tree was not electrified and wouldn’t zap me as I passed.  

Not too much farther up the next hill, I came to the grove of pines where I’ve always been amazed at the number of turkey vultures that roost in late afternoons.  Must be a hundred or so.  Really cool.  As I got closer, I could tell there were buzzards there, but they were on the ground instead of the treetop.  Seemed odd.  Then I realized they were iced up.  They were probably sitting in said treetops when the freezing rain began over night.  By morning, they were frozen over.  I was able to approach a couple for pics, but I knew they wanted nothing to do with me and I didn’t want to stress them any more than they already were.  

When I got up to the ridge road, I was relieved to see it had been plowed.  Walking on a flat surface, not plunging down into a foot and a half of snow with every step, was a relief.  I made it to Donald’s in no time.  Donald, by the way, had never seen or heard of a turkey buzzard getting iced and flightless.  I was pleased to add to some proud mountain story tellin’.  


I didn’t take an iPhone pic of Donald’s cabin on that first trip in, but this was Shannon & Sabrina’s place next door: 

Donald’s place was nice and toasty and he and his weekend caretaking granddaughter & her mom who had driven up all the way from Alabama just for the occasion, didn’t mind a stitch that Donald and I enjoyed watching a University of Kentucky basketball game on cable.  They were nice enough to feed me a hot dinner, too.  Good folks indeed.  I decided to forego Shannon’s offer following Donald’s invitation to stay with him.  He had an extra bed and it seemed the neighborly thing to do.  I accepted.  

Shauna and Stacy fixed us all a nice breakfast, too, of scrambled eggs and biscuits & gravy.  I might add during the UK game, the girls went out, scooped up some fresh snow, and mixed up a batch of snow ice cream.  A little snow, a little vanilla, a little milk.  Did we ever fix that when you were kids?  If we did, I don’t remember.  But do tell!

About breakfast time next morning we heard by text that Shannon was packing up her chain saw and car towing straps, and with all 9 of their dogs, was heading down from southern Ohio.  As always, she would do whatever she could to help whomever she could.  And about the 9 dogs?  Common practice for her and Sabrina.  It’s what happens when moms go to the lake.  

For me, I felt the most immediate need was to check what storm clean-up progress, or lack of, had been made overnight and needed to confirm water wasn’t wreaking havoc in the Lakeview house.  It was a sunny return walk the day after the storm and I wished I had packed along some sunglasses.  

When I got to the ridge road and Lakeview Drive, I realized there was nothing new to report.  The road was not plowed and there were no tire tracks. In fact, the only tracks in the snow were mine.  Still, I needed to check on the water and plunged back into the snow.  I tried to follow my own trail in reverse, and maybe that helped a bit.  I didn’t seem as winded as the day before.  No other humans out, but plenty of critter tracks in the snow. 

The house was now uncomfortably cold and I was glad I had opted to spend the night with Donald.  Refrigerator was still holding ice, so I figured I didn’t have to throw any food out yet.  Cold water still flowed along with hot water from in the well-insulated tank.  I put on my new heavy robe for the warmth and sat at the lake facing window in the master bedroom and thought how gorgeous the winter wonderland actually was.  



I mean, you know?  Cold or not, who else in the world was going to see this?  Truly, truly Naturally beautiful.

I could NOT get my feet warm, though.  Still cold from the walk, I wrapped ‘em up in a blanket, but no effect.  Still not knowing when the power would come back on, and knowing I had a return walk, I had another task that required attention.  I needed to collect & haul out some resources from my Nature’s People library to use for my Aullwood talk next Sunday.  Again aware of weight issues, I selected only a half dozen books and packed them in my duffle bag.  Wasn’t too heavy, so I added the thawed shrimp & cocktail sauce that foyer forget about eating when they were down last week, and thought I might be able to add something to my second dinner at the Browns.  

Tough trudge up the first hill.  Again, mine were the only tracks.  But at the top of that hill, where I had found the first downed limb the day before, the road had been plowed. I again wondered why the driver would stop at the top of the hill, as I had witnessed after other snowfalls on other occasions.  He had come down the hill all the way most of the time prior.  Why stop today?  In any case, hallelujah!  Progress was evident!  

That good feeling didn’t last too long when just over that crest I came upon that same pine tree pictured earlier: 

The plow driver had cut the pine off the road, but removal from power lines would obviously be a power company issue.  Seemed fair to me, but after having researched outages on the South Kentucky Rural Electric Cooperative Corporation grid, I found there were hundreds of customers out in a half dozen scattered communities. Again, I did not know how the local municipality handled largely summer communities like this.  Surely other areas would have priority over the few of us living in our little neighborhood above the lake.  

But at the crest of the next hill, I was very pleased to find and chat with some RECC line guys.  I told ‘em I was so glad to see ‘em!  I asked how many hours they had been working since the storm hit.  The guy in the bucket said they would probably get 100 hours this week.  I told ‘em to enjoy the overtime and thanks so much for what you do.  

Turns out the guy in the bucket was a joker.  I asked about how long he thought it might take to restore power down the road.  He smiled and said, ‘Oh, maybe three or four weeks.’  I looked as pained as I could and said I sure hoped not.  Then he got serious and said after they fixed the spot where they were working, power should be good.  I told him of the pine on the line down the road and he said they’d get down there next then.  I thanked them once more and trekked on.  

I might add that when I came up on the service vehicles, a couple of the guys were working on getting one bucket truck out from being stuck in the 18 inches of snow. You just have to respect the heroic work the line crew puts in following something like this.  Really amazing.  And let me tell you, our life experience loses a whole lot of quality we have become accustomed to with the loss of electricity in our personal space.  There was a real vulnerability in my experience.  

I knew it wasn’t the end of the world, but I kind of felt like the kid from William Faulkner’s ’The Bear.’  The protagonist kid, on his search to find a real live bear on his own in a Southern coming-of-age manhood thing, ends up first losing his walking stick, then his compass, then his canteen, then his everything -- before he comes upon his bear face to face.  My bear was 18 inches of snow.  

Shannon reported in that not all major roads were clear.  Some more heavily traveled Kentucky state highways, in fact, were not as clear as our state highway ridge road.  In some places she texted she could only drive 25 miles per in 4-wheel drive because of the slush and feared black ice.  When she finally got to us, she showed pics of amazing ice formations oozing out of limestone formations along one of her roads traveled.  

By that time later Sunday afternoon, Donald, his day caregiver brother Joe, and I were still talking about Denver beating the Patriots.  The Costco pot pie I suggested Shannon pick up in Lexington went into the oven, and just about halftime of that next playoff game, snacks were broken out and plates filled with yummy chicken pot pie.  Donald had a nice sized piece.  

By quarter ’til 8, we encouraged brother Joe to head on home.  Shannon and I could surely hold the fort down until night family caregiver younger brother Rick arrived a little later.  We thought it better anyway for Joe to vacate the snowy parking area in front of the house to give Rick a space he wouldn’t get stuck in.  

Just after Rick arrived, Donald said he was tired so he hit the sack.  In the only living area in the Brown cabin, Shannon, Rick, and I turned the television down and talked in hushed tones and hoped we weren’t disturbing Donald. 

Turns out Rick is retired from the State Department and was posted in China like Cindy Lou’s Auntie Jeannie.  Found his wife in Chile on another tour.  Turns out Donald didn’t hear anything and had no idea who won that second football game.

Monday morning I didn’t care about breakfast and wanted to get started early back to Lakeview.  I hoped power had been restored Sunday night and that all was well.  Still, I didn’t know the extent of storm damage on the lines and if the crew had everything they needed.  This time when I got to the ridge road and Lakeview, I noticed a new downed limb in the middle of the road.  It had to have fallen overnight.  

When I found a second new limbfall I had to pull off the road, I began to doubt if the power was, indeed, restored.  I couldn’t tell by looking at the few residences I walked past if power was on.  Then I heard a heat pump compressor from the trailer of a couple I had talked to yesterday.  They lost power early in the storm, got it back for some of Saturday, then saw fireworks come out of a transformer when an different iced-up limb fell onto it and the trailer was out again.  But now, Monday morning, all was well with them.  

And sure enough, the big icy pine on the line had been removed by the power rangers. Emily Dickinson says ‘Hope is the thing with feathers’ and I noted all the turkey vultures had made it back into the air.  I felt more hopeful. When I saw a mercury lamp lit at a neighbor’s trailer, I knew power had gotten that far.  I finally thought I could relax a little, with the odds power was now back on just over the next hill.  The plow had returned late Sunday, then, and finished the job.  Thanks to the Monticello road crew for their efficient work, too. 

On that final approach to the Lakeview house I was trying to be careful not to break my neck on black ice that had formed after yesterday’s short thaw.  I had had my only fall on any walk all through the storm and after just minutes before.  Blacktop looked good amid some fallen pine branches in the road when my left foot skidded off when I didn’t expect it to.  I crashed down on my right knee, getting some pine stain -- not grass stain -- on my new white painters paints, dang it.  But I guess I just officially initiated said painter’s pants into winter life at Lake Cumberland.  

Finally I made it down that last hill.  As I rounded the house to the front door, I could see a light through the front door and I knew all was well inside.  And, indeed, it was.  

Through all of this I have a feeling that Jonas has wed me to this place in winter.  In any case, I wanted you to know about my adventure.  

Feeling better, thanks.    :-)

Love, 
Dad 












Today’s elder idea:   ‘One can never be too sure of things.’

Spoken by ‘the man’ who is about to freeze in the Alaskan wilderness in Jack London’s short story ‘To Build a Fire,’ one of the short stories that impressed the heck out me in high school.  As I told Shannon, it’s one of the pieces of literature that made me think I could teach English.   


images:  All mine, all the weekend of 22-25 January 2016.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Sixty-six


Back on 17 December last, I was taken aback to hear that from the time the Wright brothers first flew at Kittyhawk, North Carolina — 17 December 1903 — until Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin made it to the surface of the moon for humanity’s first walk on extraterrestrial ‘soil’ — 20 July 1969 — only 66 years had elapsed.  

In other words, from the time Orville & Wilbur puzzled out how to get an internal combustion engine plus human being off the ground into free flight using only rudimentary wood and canvas for flight surfaces ’til the Apollo 11 boys broke Earth orbit for a gambit to the collection of space rocks we call our moon, only one moderate human lifetime had passed.  If you were a 17 December baby in 1903 and were still around summer 1969, you would have been 66, or darned near.  

Well, March 2016 will bring my 66th birthday, and thus, I am particularly intrigued by that number this New Year’s Eve. Thinking about 66 seems to be a thing at this point in my life.  

In a way, a 66th birthday is of little consequence.  The Medicare birthday that comes just prior was probably the big deal.  Had a party, didn’t you?  Yes, I did, too.  It was lovely, by the way, with my good buddy and birthday mate, Dick Wendeln, there and a handful of classmates.  But if you’re like me, you welcome upcoming birthdays instead with a toast at a nice restaurant with just your family.  No presents, only presence of loved ones required.  Can’t get much better than that for a 66th.  

So during a span of only 66 years, engineers and prototype builders improved the flying experience by moving from canvas to composites and developing portable power plants that would not only break the speed of sound, but would provide enough thrust take travelers into Earth orbit and beyond.  Amazing.  

And recently, of course, if you’ve been paying attention, Space X and Blue Origin, new civilian space delivery companies, have even succeeded in landing first stages of rockets to be reused.  No longer will complex and expensive first stage electronics, fuel tanks, and rocket engines be relegated to Davey Jones’ Locker upon ignition of the second stage.  Bring ‘em back, refurbish ‘em, get ‘em back in the air.  And while you’re at it, figure out a way to use the second stage over again, too.  

Makes me think of the Wrights, here, as well.  When they had trouble controlling even the gliders in the autumns preceding 1903, Wilbur concluded flight might not be, in fact, possible.  But he and his brother stuck with it, refigured their tables, and with the help Charlie Taylor, the engine builder, defied the odds and built a machine that actually flew.  

Same with landing a rocket’s first stage.  Not too many years ago, even engineers thought it impossible.  The Elon Musk (Space X) and Jeff Bezos (Blue Origin) companies, however, were able to puzzle that riddle, as well.  What new developments are upcoming?  I’ll say again, my favorite channel on cable is NASA TV.  I truly love to hear about what wonders are being worked on peacefully by the world’s best and brightest:  NASA.  European Space Agency.  Russia’s Roscomos.  Japan’s JAXA.  Now even China is in the space engineering mix.  

Oh, what the next 66 years will bring in space travel!  I wonder if one of our grandkids will walk on Mars?  I would like to hang around long enough for that accomplishment, that’s for sure.  


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I head off Sunday for Lake Cumberland to get back to work on my book, Nature’s People: The Hog Island story from Mabel Loomis Todd to Audubon.  One chapter and revision to go.  Thanks to Shannon Wood, again, for letting me use her lovely lake house to hole up in and concentrate on one thing at a time.  Much appreciated.  

Also, be advised that I am talking about my Hog Island project for Aullwood’s Winter Speaker Series this round.  Mark your calendars for Sunday, 31 January 2016, @ 2:30, for my talk, Nature’s People.  Lots of cool historical images of Hog Island from the Yale University archive.  It would be good to see you there. 

As exciting as talking space and my book might be, another truth of the time is that some good friends are fighting some mighty nasty illnesses right now.  None of us are getting any younger and bodies do break down.  

It doesn’t take a very long personal journey to find mortality staring you back in the face.  

All the best to everybody in 2016, and let’s stay healthy. What do you say?   :-)

Today’s elder idea:   In honor of my buddy Phyllis Kittel, who loves her volunteer work at the Ark-Valley Humane Society shelter in Buena Vista CO, a poem by Mary Oliver:

A puppy is a puppy is a puppy.
He’s probably in a basket with a bunch
of other puppies.
Then he’s a little older and he’s nothing
but a bundle of longing.
He doesn’t even understand it. 

Then someone picks him up and says, 
“I want this one.”

‘How it begins’ from Dog Songs by Mary Oliver.  Penguin Random House.  2013.  Used without permission.  I hope Mary wouldn’t mind.  

images:  top:  Wright brothers at Kittyhawk on 17 December 1903.  
mid:  from the Space X website.  

Neither of these used with permission either.  Hmmm. 

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Summer's escape

It has been a busy summer, for sure, but I don’t think any degree of engagement allows a blog writer to take the whole summer off.  I surely didn’t expect things to be that way, but so it has been.  In any case, I hope you missed me!  :-) 

A few thoughts about a summer that has, indeed, escaped: 

Back in June, I spent a week on Hog Island, one of my favorite places in the world, with jazz/new age/Grammy winning composer/sax player Paul Winter.  I’ve been a fan of the Paul Winter Consort for a long time and when I heard he was coming to the Audubon Camp, I volunteered in a hurry to guarantee a chance to get to spend some time with him.  

For the uninitiated, Paul Winter started as a jazz saxophonist in Chicago back in the ‘60s.  Somewhere along the line he came to understand the beauty of Nature’s own music and he made a genre out of adding recorded sounds of whales, geese, buffalo, river rapids, thunder, and the like into Consort compositions.  I have many favorite songs of his, but the one that comes to mind first is ‘River run,’ a lovely piece recorded acoustically in the Grand Canyon that begins with the trill of the canyon wren and uses the pulse of the Canyon as its heartbeat.  Great stuff.

At Camp, Winter facilitated a couple evening programs where participants brought various musical instruments, or at least something that could make a sound.  After talking about novel ways of hearing Nature, he invited four folks at a time to come to the center and play for and listen to each other in the dark, creating melody and harmony in a kind of call & response improvisation.  

Paul also shared stories of his various music projects, including his present multi-year, multi-national flyways endeavor that includes bird song with native- and Consort players-created music while contemplating bird migration from central Africa all the way into Europe and western Asia.  

I did get a couple chances to talk with Paul, but my favorite moment was when I was in the kitchen scrubbing  breakfast pots when I heard his familiar soprano sax playing out in the morning sunlight.  It had been cloudy most of the week, but finally on this morning the sun was warm and encouraging.  It gave me goose bumps to hear his ‘Sunsinger’ anthem played live that morning for the whole camp by the songwriter/soloist himself.  I feel pretty lucky to have had such a wonderful exposure to Paul and his music.

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In early September, just about the time summer was making its official calendar exit for 2015, I received an email that would radically reset the course of the seasons for me.  

As with most of us, I expect, I had just received a slough of emails, mostly junk, and was scanning ‘froms’ to see if I needed to pay special attention to anything, or if I could just send all right to the trash.  One email looked ‘first class’ — a personal one intended for me — but the name was one I had not heard for a long time.  

Pretty interested, I opened it and was rewarded with a request to pick up a friendship that had lain dormant for fifty years.  You read that correctly:  50 years.  And yes, young readers, that was way before anyone invented email.  The correspondence the sender and I had had in the past was all in letter format, and if memory serves, much of it handwritten.   

The sender was Phyllis Kittel, known to me in my high school days as geometry teacher, Sr. Mary Harold.  During sophomore year, I worked with Sister in Backyard Peace Corps, a social action group she advised and I was involved in.  I don’t remember specific details much, but I had a good feeling about Sr. Mary Harold and by the next year when her community sent her to Chicago to work on a doctorate in mathematics, we exchanged letters for a time.  But before too long, contact was lost.  And so it had been until she sent me that email back in early September.

Turns out Phyllis had gotten in touch with another teacher of mine, who was also once a nun who had left the same order, who had returned to Detroit and continued her career teaching math, I’m pretty sure in public school.  Believe it or not, that former teacher, Kathy Schrader Downs, and I, had not lost contact over the fifty years since Carroll High School.  Phyllis asked Kathy if she still heard from anybody from Carroll, and my email address was passed along.  

I am frankly amazed at how lit up the e-conversation from Phyllis left me.  I still anxiously await a new message daily, and have had a great time listening to her life stories and going into more detail than necessary telling her about mine.  After all, I do want her to know I turned out okay and she had something to do with it.  In any case, it’s been fun.  

Based on this ‘find,’ I ended up writing an essay for an Advent publication that speaks of the grateful heart that comes with reconnecting with old acquaintances.  

Phyllis & I continue our communication while Cindy & I are planning a trip to Colorado for a visit next fall to Phyllis and husband, John.  Re-finding Phyllis after all these years has been, to revisit a literary theme learned from John Steinbeck back in high school, a pearl beyond price.

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The last observation I leave you with today is about this amazing season we in the north experience known as autumn.  We recognize summer, then days get noticeably shorter and nights cooler.  Then we have frost, then a freeze, and in the process our yards are covered in leaves if you’re lucky enough to live in a neighborhood with trees.  We do and such a time is magical.  Today we brought in three young friends to jump in the huge leaf pile I had raked up just for that purpose in the front yard.  A good time was had by all, including the raker!  :-) 

Today’s elder idea:   For today’s final word on fall, I offer a verse from Emily Dickinson.   Thanks to Garrison Keillor’s ‘Writer’s Almanac’ for the idea.   [Franklin #935, 1865]

As imperceptibly as Grief
The Summer lapsed away—
Too imperceptible at last,
To seem like Perfidy—
A Quietness distilled
As Twilight long begun
Or Nature spending with herself
Sequestered Afternoon—
The Dusk drew earlier in—
The Morning foreign shone—
A courteous, yet harrowing Grace,
As Guest, that would be gone—
And thus, without a Wing
Or service of a Keel
Our Summer made her light escape
Into the Beautiful.


imagestop:  Paul Winter playing ‘Sunsinger’ outside the Fish House on Hog Island.   mid:  Sr. Mary Harold (1965), the once and present Phyllis Kittel.  below:  Three kids in a leaf pile.  :-)



Friday, June 26, 2015

Patter

Such a day already.  The grandson is over for a few days and we had planned to go riding bikes out of Yellow Springs this morning with a Young’s Dairy ice cream ‘chaser’ to finish.  Alas, a very steady rain all over the area makes riding a very wet choice.  Instead, Grandpa Tom has determined it will be the 2 pm showing of ‘Journey into Space’ in 3D at the Museum of the United States Air Force this afternoon, rain or shine.  Grammy and Noah are in favor.   

In the interim I am sitting solo under the back porch canopy while a gentle but steady rain visits Wild Grace, the little domain Cindy Lou & I call home.  

There are other things I could/should be doing, like working on the book or getting a few overdue things ready for mailing, but I am having a hard time getting out of this chair to do anything else but sit, listen, and be present with the amazing abundance of this late June all-morning rain in southwest Ohio.  

Of course, there is the subliminal jousting going on in my brain’s decision-making center.  Work good.  Progress good.  Resolution of work begun some time ago good. 

Yet in the sense of mindfulness, I am aware of the uncommon gift of being able to sit for an extended time under a canvas drum listening to the essential cycle of life on this planet making its own unique style of music.  It is a calming and beautiful thing just being present with Nature as it unfolds.  Sunny days are great, but rainy days with personal quiet time achieved is something to savor.  

It is, nonetheless, difficult to get the idea out of my head that I really should get something accomplished this morning.  I can think of two women I care for deeply who are working a full day today, giving of their time to make the world a better place.  Their time is not their own.  Me?  I’m sitting at home listen to it rain.    

I was hoping to write a blog about my experience with Paul Winter on Hog Island a couple weeks ago, but I figured such will take at least two hours if not more and I couldn’t find the motivation to remove myself from my rain meditation to focus energies somewhere other than this.  

Then thoughts drifted more deeply out into Wild Grace as I began to consider how important this natural watering is for all things green and for all those depending on those things green for sustenance and livelihood.  A hummingbird or two have braved falling rain to visit the sweetwater feeder hanging just above me.  A chipmunk just happened up onto the patio, took one look at me and froze, then tore off like his life was in danger after I said good morning.  Life is going on all around me.  It is palpable and fragrant and significant and as Real as it gets.  

Which made me think what a great blog topic that would be.  How important is sitting and listening to Nature go about her business on a rainy day?  Shoot, such could be an icebreaker for writing in general.  If I could get this one out plus the one on Paul Winter, maybe I could parlay that into an extended weeks-long writing period.  Maybe.  I’m still not quite sure how this writing thing is supposed to work for me. 

But right now I remain under canopy on the back porch, listening to rain patter and a few wet bird songs emanating from under a wetter, greener canopy encompassing the universe beyond. 

Yes, I could get busy doing other more practical stuff, but right now I’m just going to sit, sip a little water of my own, and listen.  

Today’s elder idea:   Humankind, despite its artistic abilities, sophistication, and accomplishments, owes its existence to a six-inch layer of farmable soil and the fact that it rains.
               Anonymous


images:  originals off the back porch on a rainy morning